Struggling without you Kerry Annie. We were together for as long as I can remember. I needed you as much as you needed me, in fact, I probably needed you more... I don't live anymore, I just exist. I try to keep going for your Dad but I am just so tired and empty inside. I hide away from the world, it's a scary lonely place without you. I am so sorry I didn't know how ill you were that terrible day. We put our trust in the doctors. We didn't know at the time, but they sent you home to die... I will never come to terms with this, I just can't let go, or accept what happened, none of it makes any sense to me, it never will. I'm sorry I couldn't help you at the end ... you were gone before we knew it. Even though I know there is nothing I could have done, I still feel as if I should have been able to protect you, as I had always tried to do. I will never forget the way you looked at me just before you passed. I wish with all my heart that I could have gone with you angel. Know that I love you more than words can ever say. You are part of me... the best part of me. You are never more than a heartbeat away angel and we will be together again... Sleep in heavenly peace sweetheart. xx